small girl vs. big city

a touch overdramatic….it’s only day three without a phone. at first it was fun, i looked at it like i was off of my leash. no boys to have to gently inform “i’m busy tonight”. hey bill collectors, leave a message…oh wait you cant. i was excited, i had alone time with ME. day two was spent, well lounging. but today. YAAAAAAWN. today i miss my girlfriends. i dont know if i like the fact that i dropped off the face of the earth, or if i miss all those silly txts with the boys* more. Sunday phone day with the fam, rained out. Hmm. Today is also the first day I turned on my radio. Silence is getting to me I guess. Wow, the only words I’ve spoken in my waking hours today have been to help a guy back his big truck out of the small parking space. (sometimes i leave the house just to get the good deed outta the way. HA). focus. hmm whatelse, i chatted with a little kid in line at trader joes. eggs $1.49, organic strawberries (there is an addicting difference, trust) $2.49, and a little dark chocolate/hazelnut bar $1.99. i’m about to take myself to a free movie i’d never ask any self respecting man to sit through. i like going to the movies alone. at first, i’d get a few “i wonder if she got stood up” looks, but now i’m not sure if i do or not bc i dont pay attention. i like me. dating me is fun. ha ha haaaaaa. aww yes i’m laughing out loud. dont get me wrong, i turn down movie/coffee/dinner dates. i’m cute as hell for cryin out loud. it’s just, i really enjoy my me time. but me-time in combination with a communication breakdown… i’m ready to come out & play. I woke up in the middle of the night and (outloud) had a very specific pout/demand/beg & plead session with God. Right after, He made it very clear that He heard me. After our little chat, I had the urge to get a book I was given years ago. “101 things happy people do”, or something…ive never felt the urge to really read it seeing as how everything from teaching kids the humor in sticking their tongues out at the checkout stand to any typical sunset, can make me happy. anyway i got up, turned on the light, found the book and did what i was supposed to do. i randomly opened the book and wouldnt you know… a hug. the chapter I opened to was entitled “Dont let your religious beliefs fade”. I know God is ALWAYS with me. That’s why i’m brave. that’s why i’m silly. why i’m happy. it’s why I…AM. So, tomorrow is a business day. Today was His day off, but tomorrow oh tomorrow i am hoping for quite a lot… calm down, God made me impatient and He also gave me a sense of humor. He loves me that way. Starting to feel like Christmas Eve around here… peace i gotta movie to catch

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